Remembering Kelsey today ……..

    I'm sitting here reflecting as today marks 15 years since the day of the accident and the day that would forever change our lives. I remember the day as it was yesterday as every moment of the day is forever etched into my memory... for memories and the love of my beautiful Kelsey are what keep me going each and every day.  

I replay this day over and over in my mind, always praying for a different ending, that this freak accident had never happened, and the next thirty hours in the hospital would have turned out differently with Kelsey here with us today. And yet the reality is a lifetime journey of missing my girl......

  As I think about that day, it started out just like every other school day......Kelsey got up at 6:14 just like every other school day, She changed her outfit 3 times that morning, which was nothing unusual either, before landing on the perfect outfit to wear for school, a short blue print skirt and white tank top.  She looked great.  And I remember saying to her that morning, Kels, you look really really pretty today.  She just had a glow and radiance about her as she smiled at me that morning. I asked her to let me take a picture and she said it’s no big deal Mom, we will do it another time. How I wish I had taken the photo....As I left for work, I wished Kelsey good luck on her test, good luck with her soccer game today, gave her a goodbye hug, told her I loved her and would see her at the game.  Thanks Mom.....Love you too!  would be the last words that I would ever hear Kelsey say to me.......   

Kelsey texted me from school several times throughout the day which was also nothing unusual. for her. She shared that she had a dream last night about her birthday party and reminded me that it's coming up so we needed to decide about things soon.  She always wanted a big celebration and I know that would have happened. We decided we would talk about it when Kels got home from her soccer game that night. 

Then, Kels texted, asking me if I could take her shopping on Saturday for a dress for the Home Coming Dance.  I said of course and asked who she was going with and she said we’ll talk about it later.  

Then, a text came that the soccer game start time was changed and that Varsity was playing at 4 pm at Pope John Paul HS instead of later.  Kelsey wanted to make sure I knew and was still coming since it was raining.  I told her that of course I'd be there.  It was a rainy and gloomy day but of course I went to the game just as I always did. I wouldn't miss the chance to watch Kels as I loved to see her play.  Kelsey started on Varsity that day and she looked great.  She played so well and you could see she was so proud and beaming with pride.  I could see by the expression on Kelsey's face, in her smile and in her eyes, just how very happy she was to be out there playing, playing well and playing with all of her good friends. She was thrilled and I couldn't have been happier for her to have those moments.. 

I did not get to talk with Kelsey after the game but sent her a text congratulating her on starting in the game and letting her know that she played really well and that she looked great out there.  I told Kelsey how very proud I am of her.  She thanked me and said love you mom …..see you later.  That would be Kelsey's last message to me............I then left for back to school night at OJR and said love you too....see you later.  

15 years ago today would be the last time that I would ever see Kelsey's smile, her sparkling eyes, hear her voice, hear her laughter and feel her touch and those great big hugs.....the last time that I would ever see my beautiful, vibrant girl so happy, smiling, having fun and so full of life.  If I had known, I would have never left Kelsey at the game that day.  If only I could turn back time and be with my girl......

Here is the video of Kelsey playing at the PJP game on that day 15 years ago today along with some other clips from other games.  I am so grateful that I have this video yet the images of Kelsey actually playing that day are forever imprinted in my mind and always will be.   I couldn't be more proud of my girl and only wish that she had the opportunity to see this video too.....     

 http://vimeo.com/37283336

We love you Kelsey and miss you more than you can ever imagine.  You are with us always, now and forever baby girl......Kelsey, you are forever loved, forever remembered, forever our inspiration, forever strong and forever in our hearts......

Love, Mom

  Memories of  Kelsey............

Remembering each of these moments and how much Kelsey loved the beach, summertime and being with  family and  friends .....Seems like it was only yesterday and yet most days it feels like a lifetime without our girl.  Wishing we could see that beautiful smile again.........see those sparkling eyes and hear that silly laugh just one more time.  Kelsey, we love & miss you more with each passing day.   You are Forever Loved, Forever Remembered & Forever Strong.....   Miss you baby girl today, tomorrow and always.........

   Remembering Kelsey.........

This quote couldn't be more true and reflective of the impact that Kelsey made on so many of our lives and the imprint that she continues to make on people each and every day.  For many of us, we have been forever changed by Kelsey...  

                                                                                                            Cherishing the memories and times we had with Kels, and yet long for and want more of those moments and memories together. 

Forever missing my girl... And will love and miss you each and every day until the day we are together again.           

  

 Kelsey, you are forever loved, forever remembered and forever in our hearts yesterday, today, tomorrow and always. We love and miss you baby girl........... Keep smiling beautiful........                                                                                                            

                                                                                      

  Thinking of you Kelsey.....today and everyday.......

My beautiful, beautiful Kelsey. 14 years & 8 months without you.  It's simply unimaginable.  At times, it feels like it was only yesterday and most other times it feels like an eternity. 

 These pictures of you remind me of the wonderful times that we shared on our trips together to Riviera Maya and Florida. We promised each other that our Mom and Kelsey trips would be an annual tradition.  I treasure each and every moment shared with you Kels, but I want to be making more memories with you. Can't help but wonder what adventure we would be on today.  And so very sad and angry that you're not here for us to share these moments.  With each passing day, I miss you more and more.  

Kelsey Lynn Kramer.......you are forever in my thoughts and forever in my heart now and always. You are my inspiration each and every day.  Love you baby girl..........

 

  Not a moment goes by that you are not in our thoughts.  Love looking at these photos as it brings back such wonderful memories.  Kelsey, we love & miss you so very much 

Keep smiling baby girl......

                                                    We love and miss you Kelsey............... 
                

                Happy Easter Kelsey!

 14 1/2 Years of Missing Our Beautiful Kelsey....

          We Love & Miss You Always.  Keep Smiling Beautiful...

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Just doesn't seem possible that it's 14 1/2 years without our girl.  Time continues to pass and yet our grief and the journey we travel will continue until we are together again.   Love knows no boundaries and the bond between a mom/dad and daughter is everlasting ....We miss our girl more with every passing moment.

Kelsey, you are always on our mind and forever in our hearts.     We love you baby girl today, tomorrow and always...