Remembering Kelsey today …….
7 years
ago and I remember the day like it was yesterday. Each and every
minute of that day etched into my memory for memories are all that I
have left of my beautiful Kelsey . I replay this day over and over in
my mind, praying that the ending would be a different one and that this
freak accident had never happened and my Kelsey would be here with us.
The
day started out just like every other day......Kelsey got up for school
at 6:14 just like every other day, She changed her outfit 3 times that
morning, that was nothing unusual either, before landing on the perfect
outfit to wear. Of course, Kelsey looked beautiful in each of the
outfits but she finally decided on the short blue print skirt and white
tank top. She looked great. Honestly, Kels always looked great in
anything she wore but that morning I even remember saying to Kelsey, you
look really really pretty today. She just had a glow and radiance
about her as she smiled at me that morning. I asked her to let me take a
picture and she said it’s no big deal Mom, we will do it another time.
Why didn't I take the picture....As I left for work, I wished Kelsey
good luck on her test, good luck for the game, gave her a hug goodbye
and said I love you and see you at the game. Thanks Mom.....Love you
too would be the last words that I would ever hear Kelsey say to
me....... If only I knew that was going to be the last time that we
would talk with each other—I would have never left, said so much more
and would have never let her go.
Kelsey
texted me from school several times throughout the day which was also nothing
unusual. She asked me if we could talk about her birthday and the
birthday party she was planning. Kelsey shared with me that she had a
dream last night about her birthday and the party she was going to have
and reminded me that it was coming up soon so we needed to decide about
things. We decided that we would talk about it when Kels got home from
her soccer game that night.
Then, Kelsey texted me asking me if I could take her shopping on Saturday for a dress for the Home Coming Dance. I said sure and asked Kels who she was going with and she said we’ll talk about it later.
Then a text came that the soccer game time was changed and that Varsity was playing at 4 pm at Pope John Paul HS instead of later. Kelsey wanted to make sure I knew and was still coming since it was raining. I told her that I'd be there. It was a rainy and gloomy day but of course I went to the game just as I always did. I wouldn't miss the chance to watch Kels as I loved to see her play. Kelsey started on Varsity that day and she looked great. She played so well and you could see that she was so proud and beaming. I could see by the expression on Kelsey's face, in her smile and in her eyes, just how very happy she was to be out there playing, playing well and playing with all of her good friends. She was thrilled...
I did not get to talk with Kelsey after the game but I sent her a text congratulating her on starting in the game and letting her know that she played really well and that she looked great out there. I told Kels how very proud I am of her. Kelsey thanked me and said love you mom …..see you later. That would be Kelsey's last message to me............I then left for back to school night at OJR and said Love you too....see you later.
7 years ago today would be the last time that I would ever see Kelsey's smile, hear her voice, hear her laughter and feel her touch.....the last time that I would ever see my beautiful, vibrant girl so happy, smiling, having fun and so full of life. If I had known, I would have never left Kelsey that day at the game. If only I could turn back time.......
Then, Kelsey texted me asking me if I could take her shopping on Saturday for a dress for the Home Coming Dance. I said sure and asked Kels who she was going with and she said we’ll talk about it later.
Then a text came that the soccer game time was changed and that Varsity was playing at 4 pm at Pope John Paul HS instead of later. Kelsey wanted to make sure I knew and was still coming since it was raining. I told her that I'd be there. It was a rainy and gloomy day but of course I went to the game just as I always did. I wouldn't miss the chance to watch Kels as I loved to see her play. Kelsey started on Varsity that day and she looked great. She played so well and you could see that she was so proud and beaming. I could see by the expression on Kelsey's face, in her smile and in her eyes, just how very happy she was to be out there playing, playing well and playing with all of her good friends. She was thrilled...
I did not get to talk with Kelsey after the game but I sent her a text congratulating her on starting in the game and letting her know that she played really well and that she looked great out there. I told Kels how very proud I am of her. Kelsey thanked me and said love you mom …..see you later. That would be Kelsey's last message to me............I then left for back to school night at OJR and said Love you too....see you later.
7 years ago today would be the last time that I would ever see Kelsey's smile, hear her voice, hear her laughter and feel her touch.....the last time that I would ever see my beautiful, vibrant girl so happy, smiling, having fun and so full of life. If I had known, I would have never left Kelsey that day at the game. If only I could turn back time.......
Here
is the video of Kelsey playing at the PJP game on that day 7 years ago
today along with some other clips from other games. I am so grateful
that I have this video but the images of Kelsey actually playing that
day are forever imprinted in my mind and always will be.
http://vimeo.com/37283336
We
love you Kelsey and miss you more than you can ever imagine. You are
with us always, now and forever.......Kelsey,you are forever loved,
forever remembered, forever strong and forever in our hearts....
Love, Mom
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